To See a Green Flash

In the same vein as Catcher in the Rye?s Holden Caulfield, Landon arrives at his existence through a tragedy, wherein his psyche becomes fractured. For emotional success, Landon must work to recognize how his mind has engaged in self-preservation: a combination of repressing memories and re-defining reality so it doesn?t hurt when life?s recordings invade the mind.

    Ever wondered what it might be like to be a mail order bride?  Or the groom, already married to a woman he’s never laid eyes on? 
    On the Canadian prairies in 1886, having a mail order romance wasn’t unusual.  Noah Ferguson desperately needed help on his farm.  Annie Tompkins knew she couldn’t go on working in Lazenby’s cotton mill.  So she’d been a little less than honest in her letters, was that really so terrible?
    It was unforgivable, Noah fumed.  He’d wanted an older widow, and Annie was a young virgin.  But even that wasn’t the full extent of her lies.
    Problem is, Noah hasn’t exactly been straight with Annie, either, and his secret has the power to break Annie’s heart.
    Can even a special Christmas gift make their marriage work? 

Read an Excerpt:

    What the hell had possessed him to shave off his beard this morning, Noah wondered? His rugged features might look better without all that wild black hair, but the beard might also have kept his chin from freezing, waiting for this damnable train.
    And after all, what did he care how he might appear to her? It wasn’t as if he had to court her; the marriage was over, the legal bond established between them. She had insisted on a proxy marriage before she left Toronto on the four-day train journey that was bringing her here to Medicine Hat. Against his better judgment—and the advice of the only lawyer in town—Noah had agreed.
    He’d wanted it all over and done with. He’d signed the papers and sent the money for the fare, and now that she was almost here, his gut was churning. He wished to God the train would get here so they could be done with this awful first meeting, he and Annie Tompkins.
    Annie Ferguson, he corrected himself. Annie Ferguson, his second wife. Tall, she'd described herself. Thirty-four, on the thin side, and plain, which suited him just fine. He’d been relieved to read her description of herself; after all, this was no love match, far from it.
    Instead, it was a practical solution for them both. She was a soldier's wife, widowed in the Rebellion of 1885, a farm woman trapped in the city, working in some dingy factory to support herself and her young daughter while longing for the country life she'd known as a child.
    And as for him, this marriage was a desperate measure.
    He thought of his cranky, bed-ridden father, being cared for at this moment by a kindly neighbor, then deliberately forced his thoughts back to his new wife.
    Redheaded, she’d said, which worried Noah some.  Was it true, what they said about a redhead’s temper? There’d been no sign of it in the eight letters she’d sent during the past months, and Lord only knew he had no experience of women’s temper and no desire to learn.
    Molly had been the sweetest of women. In their three years of marriage, Noah was hard put to recall times when she’d even come close to losing her temper.
    Molly. Without warning, bitter rage at his loss welled up in him, rage so intense that his tall, well-muscled body trembled with the force of it, and he clenched his teeth and knotted his hands into fists inside the blue wool mittens his dead wife had knitted for him.
    There were holes worn through one thumb and two fingers. Noah had clumsily mended them.
    It had been two years now since Molly and his eighteen-month-old son, Jeremy, had died within hours of one another, victims of typhoid, and in recent months he'd begun to believe this smothering, impotent, choking fury was gone forever, that time had eased the agony of his loss. Instead, here it was back again, as powerful as ever, and now there was this gnawing guilt as well.
    I never wanted any woman but you, Molly. Still don’t, but I can’t do it alone anymore, not since Dad had the stroke. If you’d lived, Molly, I wouldn’t be in this damnable position, waiting to meet some stranger. I’ve had to invite her to share the house we built together, the bed we slept in.  Damn it all, Molly, how could you do this to me?
    He struggled for, and as always, recovered his self-control. He reminded himself with harsh honesty that his new wife would share as well the work of the ranch, the care of his father, the constant, ill-tempered demands of a once sweet natured man who'd become a tyrant since his stroke.
    Noah swallowed hard and the last of the rage subsided, replaced with apprehension. He’d mentioned in his letters to Annie that his father wasn’t well, but he’d never really explained exactly what taking care of Zachary involved. Hell, if he had done so, no woman in her right mind would have agreed to come, would she?
    Like him, Annie and her young daughter would just have to make the best of this situation. He brushed one hand across his eyes, clearing away the snowflakes that blinded him, and squinted down the track.
    Far off down the rails a single headlamp flickered in the driving snowstorm, and over the sound of the wind he could hear the eerie wail of the steam whistle and the sound of an approaching engine. The train was coming.
    At last, the waiting was done.

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